4 days

Warning: This may be a boring post to you!! Please feel free to skip if you want too :o) Holy Moly! We only have to wait four more days until "Thor" is legally our son. I will admit, still seems kind of far. I know it's just right around the corner though. Obviously with finalization so close, it's been on my mind even more. It's so surreal to me. That one of my... yeah, I'd say life long dreams of becoming a mom is about to happen. A lot of people say I became a mom a while ago, and my thoughts are this. Yes and no. Yes, because I have been helping numerous friends with their kids, we fostered "Little Man" for two months, I have been a leader of many young ones at church, etc. But that is all different. I say no, because... on Monday, I will get full rights and responsiblities of another human being! He will be ours to care for and teach. No waiting for another set of parents to come home/get them, no getting permission from the state for something, wondering how long he'll stay. "Thor" is OURS! and forever!! This gets me thinking of "Thor"'s bio. parents. They have their faults, but who doesn't? To me, it says A LOT that they unselfishly signed over their parental rights, so that "Thor" could have a better life than they thought they could provide at this time for him. There is no question in my mind that they love him so incredibly much. Now, a lot of people question our open adoption with them. We love it! I loved sending that facebook message to her, letting her know "Thor" cut his very first tooth!! So fun having them at his check-ups, meeting them for ice cream, etc. It has been great for everyone involved. I think it's so cool "Thor" has 2 moms and 2 dads that love him more than anything in this world!! My heart breaks for them though. The pain they must be going through. Placing a child for adoption is not for whimps! It was all I could do to not cry watching them sign relinquishment papers. They are definitely strong people, and I admire them for that. I'll stop my ramblings now. I just wanted to get my thoughts out in the open... to be honest, help me collect them more than anything. Thanks for getting through it. Love to all!!!